I wanted a warm chocolate chip cookie once, so I put it in the microwave for a few minutes. It goes to show you how little I understood microwaves and time. Well, you know what happened? It exploded.Tiny bits of a cookie were all over the microwave, and the smell was unbelievably offensive- who knew cookies could smell so bad? After the smoke cleared, my mom told me that the next time I wanted a warm chocolate cookie I would have to make it myself. And that’s just what I did. Nearly 15 years later, and a pastry degree under my belt, I owe it all to an exploding chocolate chip cookie.
That’s life. One event can change it in the most unconscious and bizarre ways. When you think everything is peaceful and conformed, something has to come along that completely changes everything and sometimes it changes just you. Normally I love it, but sometimes that life altering change isn’t what you thought you wanted. For me, it’s hard looking at the upside of the imminent changes like death, and love. Death is an inevitability, it’s a part of being alive. If I had to chose between which is more fearsome of the changes, I would say love is the impending doom. Once it takes it’s form and shape, it’s irrevocable. Not to say death isn’t scary or can be changed because it can’t, but rather, it is a constant whereas love is a variable.
Shakespeare said, “Journeys end in lovers meeting.” And like Iris in The Holiday, I cannot claim to know anything about that. But I tend to think the opposite- journeys begin in lovers meeting, although that might just be the Indiana Jones in me. It’s my proclivity to think of everything as a great big adventure, life is much more interesting that way. I don’t want to think of love being the end of everything or I would be less inclined to accept it.
Right now though, I’m ready to accept it. I’m ready for dancing in my nuddy-pants and beginning journeys. Above all, I’m ready for swimming in that water where baby there may be a shark. It’s all a part of growing up; there are risks and there are things waiting to change your life, even if it’s just a chocolate chip cookie.
P.S. No more Special K! That’s why I am making that goofy happy face!!